From the monthly archives:

December 2009

It’s been that kind of year.

This was the first draft of the annual Christmas letter.

Dear Friends and Family,

This is my family.

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I think they are still super cute and super great.

We are still super busy.

Merry Christmas,

the Landers.

But it’s New Year’s Eve and the glaring 2009 slot in our Christmas letter book haunts me, threatening insomnia. Besides, it’s been an amazing year…one that deserves at least some documentation.

Thus, the Landers’ cast of characters:

Dawson (10) has the intense, competitive, stubborn look of the first born he is. Such qualities generally serve him well where basketball, football, baseball, and soccer are played. He’s certainly kept us humble in our parenting abilities from day one. We’re thankful for that. We’re so proud of him.

Not sure whether he wants to be an American idol or win the Heisman Trophy, Gabe (9) got a love of music from his dad and a natural athletic grace from me. Ha–just seeing if you’re reading. Both guitars and athletic jerseys line his bedroom wall. Their competition for space reflect Andy’s genes and his coaching.

His face etched with a permanent smile, Max (7) adds a bit of charm and charisma to his own athletic and musical pursuits. Though it’s hard for him, he tries to play it tough. But we can see thru it, especially when he sneaks up close to hold our hands or writes us notes.

Quincy (5) mirrors most Dawson’s intensity and tenacity. The blond ringlets covering his head may suggest some of Max’s charm but in reality belie a strength and fight within him. He’ll need both to face the future. As my dad recently worded it, “Quincy, whose challenges at birth helped launch a sense of greater compassion in all of us, faces some tough choices ahead. His wounded bladder hasn’t been growing as hoped, bringing a sad memory to the surface and causing us to wonder how God can shape something beautiful from this.”

Zeke (4), having clearly adjusting to life in America, asked for a Disney birthday cake this year. Last year, he wanted a “chicken” cake. Some scars of insecurity and fear from the years in the orphanage occasionally rise to the surface. I can’t quite figure out whether the hugs that “paralyze” us are really for us or for him.  

Kora (4), herself went from last year’s “shoes” cake to this year’s Barbie cake. Proud of her position as the lone female among the boys, she has enough “attitude” to cover the gap. It’s awesome to see her be child again. In her first years she had assumed an “adult‘ responsibility for Zeke—unhealthy for a 2 year old. Happily for all of us, she’s very much child again.

Following his demanding and often exhausting day, Andy comes home to a demanding and exhausting family. I fear at times that we might kill his muse, but fortunately the music still over overflows, modeling his art for the family, guiding the church, inspiring the community. Few possess his talent and yet he affords all of us the freedom to pursue our passions. He holds us all together, giving so much, requiring so little.

Motherhood and clean water—that’s about it for me right now. Our Water For Christmas effort with charity: water grew into a 30/hour a week volunteer position for me. Which would be crazy, if I didn’t love it so much. The effort brought together the most amazing team of people. And has ignited and expanded within me the motherly instinct that was so natural to include a fight for mothers around the world.

This year is hereby acknowledged and somewhat documented and just in time. I hear the last chimes of 2009.

The Landers

Cassie marked down a number of items in the Water For Christmas Etsy shop. Added a few new ones.

So just in case you are not busy partying tonight and want to shop online instead.

I will be sleeping…but you could do either one of those things.

Making me happy today:

Using left-over candy canes to stir my morning coffee….

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That I am now in business for at-home mailing. You have no idea how this changes my life. I will so miss the time spent with the post office ladies everyday. But this is good. Really good.

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And NOT:

The fact that warring tribes (aka ‘brothers) have yet to reach a peace agreement in my household.

World War III rages on here during Christmas break.

“O Lord,

Length of days does not profit me

except for days passed in thy presence,

in thy service, to thy glory.

Give me a grace that precedes, follows, guides,

sustains, sanctifies, aids every hour,

That I may not be one moment apart from thee,

but may rely on thy Spirit to supply every thought,

speak in every work,

direct every step,

prosper every work,

build up every mote of faith,

and give me a desire to show forth thy praise;

testify thy love,

advance thy kingdom.”

(A New Years prayer, Puritan prayers)

We are trying to clear out some products.

Making room for a make-over of the Water shop.

So I still have some water bottles and reusable lunch sacks.

$5.

All profit goes to Water.

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Shop here   while they last.

So part of our local water team left frigid Iowa for vacation in Florida— leaving us here all alone to try and tie up all the loose ends of the campaign.

Whatever.

They thought this would somehow make up for it….

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Yeah. No.

Get back here.

(I’m jesting. We allow vacations at Water For Christmas too. Even though the extremely high pay should keep them coming back….).

..it is a little fun.

But just because we love, love, love to see them smile.

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3 families.

Who together have 16 kids.

And that qualified us for some ginormous group rate discount or something.

So we are taking the kids tonight to the indoor water park for the night.

Honestly, Andy and I don’t love these places.

But we are significantly outnumbered here so off we will go.

How is it be that “vacations” are so exhausting?

Well, we know why.

And we know it will pass one day.

Something about this photo taken yesterday made me pause.

I think it’s his eyes.

But it’s true that this little boy literally makes my knees weak every now and then.

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He’s been a booger lately. Super hard to parent. Rather angry.

We wonder what’s going on in his head, how much of his broken body he is beginning to understand and wrestle with.

These lines were stolen from my Dad’s Christmas letter: “Quincy, whose challenges at birth helped launch a sense of greater compassion in all of us, faces some tough choices ahead for an otherwise completely normal kid. His wounded bladder hasn’t been growing as hoped, bringing a sad memory to the surface and causing us to wonder how God can shape something beautiful from this.”

Such conflicting emotions. Such a beautiful boy.


  

Exhibit A to the aforementioned differences between our one princess and her brothers….

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I just sent them outside into the frigid Iowa winter….

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